Hectic Week

So I've had kind of a hectic week. 1st of all I am having a major FM flare and so my pain has been excruciating and I have had the usual fatigue as well. Stress also aggravates this. Amongst other things, one of my good friends from high school, Francis, had colon cancer surgery on Tuesday. They took 9 inches of his intestine. He is just waiting on the biopsy results from the lymph nodes which he should have tomorrow or Tuesday. I am praying really hard that everything comes back clean. He also seems to have found someone that makes him really happy, she also went to our high school and I am so happy for both of them. They really deserve happiness.
Anyway, on Wednesday, on of my BFFs, Rockin' Robin, had surgery on her tibia from a fracture that she got in an accident. They had to put a plate in her leg so that she could walk normal. She has to keep weight off of it for 8 weeks. Bless her heart- She is an awesome person with a huge heart of gold. The surgery turned out well. keeping her in my prayers too.
I have also had several things going on this week- I just feel crazy!!
My lack of motivation has really shown itself this week. I have been sending daily quotes to over 200 people every week-day for I don't know how long and this past week I didn't send them. I am using the excuse that it was a holiday week and nobody needed extra junk in their e-mail. I also haven't prepared the ones for this coming week. I don't know what to do.
I had some mailings to get out from the HOA to all the neighbors regarding speed limits, which I did manage to do. I am also supposed to be working on the neighborhood website but I haven't had a chance (or motivation) to do that either. I really need to get on the ball. Maybe if I organized my office some then maybe it would make it easier for me to work. I will try to work on that tomorrow- not procrastinating- it IS 10 pm ;-)
So many people have died this week, both famous and personal acquaintances which is really sad for me.
John took the week off to relax- I hope he was able to get some relaxation before returning to work tomorrow.
This is a boring entry I know, but oh well, I guess it is more for my benefit.
I hope my pain starts to diminish soon so that I can feel active again. Still sucks to be me but that is who I am and I accept it.

Frustration

Here I am again feeling like crap and I have felt this way for the last few days. I can never figure out why because things happen in conjunction. For example, I lowered my tramadol thinking it wasn't doing anything then I start feeling bad again, but the weather is also rainy and messy and I feel like I have a bad flu. if it weren't for the weather I could say that maybe my tramadol was actually working for me but since the weather affects me, I can't tell which is the cause in this case. It is so frustrating trying to deduce and factor to figure out what works for me. I haven't been using the oil much but when I used it the other day I am pretty sure it helped. My problem is lack of motivation and forgetfulness. I just don't think about using it every day. You would think that with my pain and all that I would do anything but my fatigue makes me lazy and I just lay there putting it off until later. I make it here to the computer on my bathroom rounds. every time I get up to go, I drop in and try to catch up on some e-mail and go back to the sofa. I am so behind on all of my e-mails, I drop in on facebook and care2 as well but can't stay for long. I feel really out of touch. I guess I am.